Getting Better

Well after the last time I wrote a blog many things have happened my friend's brother's funeral happened and I went to that and it was really good I got to see his cousin and she is one of my best friends and then there is the fact that she is pregnant and it was good to see her and she is having a boy and I am so happy for her and I always feel like the one that is good but I know I'm not.

R.I.P. Rich

Yesterday one of my friend's brother committed suicide his own life and then I still had to come to school because my mom said we need to live the same even though she was there for it the whole time but I still came and I still fell so bad about it. The worst part is that many people think that they knew what was going on and then they talk to the people that really knew and say all of what they think and we find out that they are all hearing the rumors and they are no where near the truth. When I went and talked to someone about it with one of my friends I heard all of the rumors and had to deal with them then and didn't know what to say. Then there are all the people that say that they knew him and they feel bad but don't really care. Why is it that some of the people you have known for years are always the ones that you wish you got to say goodbye to one last time and never get to and you feel as if they do something wrong that it is all your fault.