Moving On and Looking Forward

Well I keep forgetting that this exists and I am really starting to need somewhere to turn and just put my feelings into words.
In the past year and a half I met the love of my life and have been with him now for over nine months. Now I feel like I don't belong in Torrington. You know when you get the feeling that something isn't right for you and you need to change it and get away and find where you are supposed to be. Well that is how I am feeling. I have decided that i am going to move from Torrington where to I don't know but for right now I am waiting for two months until my boyfriend is able to go with me because of past issues and then I am going to save every cent of my pay and leave if he wants to go with me he can but if he doesn't that is fine I am going to make it work to the best of my abilities.I want to say that I am happy with my descion that I made to stay here and work and live with my family, but I am not and I guess it would have to do with just how I feel about the people that are here.

Family Reports

It has been a year since I moved back home and I know that I wanted to go back to Rock Springs by this point but my plans changed. I am going to be staying here to work on my nursing school and work out at the Wyoming Medium Correctional Insitution (A Prison for men) with my dad, mom, and my uncle. My older brrother Eric has been home with us fro a while out here but now he has his own home with his girlfriend and their son and her parents and their son that is around the same age. David, my other older brother, has just come home from another year at school and will be starting work at a bakery that is going to be opening just across the parking lot from my job. The owner also works with my parents at WMCI. Next comes Brent he is doing so well I cant believe that he will be 19 this summer. Most people said he would never make it to five, never acclompish anything, or he should just be put in a home all because he has Down's syndrome; but he has showen all of them to watch them eat there words. He and I just got home form another journey to the Wyoming Special Olympic games in Larmie where he recieved 1 silver medal and 5 bronze. How is that for never acclompishing anything. Craig now at the crazy age of 17, has been doing so great comparred to all of the drama he faced last year. He has one of the most amazing girlfriends named Dakota and he is so happy that all of the problems he had at the school are in the past. Finally Alan he is now 16 I cant believe how much we have all grown up. He went to prom with Craig and Dakota and a group of their friends. He has been involved in plays and musicals thoughout the year and right now he and Craig are rehersing for a show that they are going to be putting on in about a week. Its crazy but they are so happy. Finally onto my mom and dad now that their kids are starting to have lives of their own they are now going on about a date a week and they couldn't be happier. They know that they have a place to come home to everynight with food in their fridge and happy children. They feel as if they couldnt ask for anything better. Finally onto more with me. I have been working at Arby's now for about nine months and I absolutely love my job. I know that I dont want to be there the rest of my life but for now it sutis me just fine. I cant wait to get back to school and keep on learning more and more every day and I cant wait until the day I get my degree and I can start my life as a nurse. The only thing left to say is 3 more weeks and I will be a full legal adult because it will be my 21 brithday. 20 days and counting. All right lets get the party started.

New Updates

I have been home now for about 5 months and I love it so much. I am so happy to be here. My brother and sister moved in with us about 2 months ago with their son and he is such a joy to have in the house. I have made amazing friends and I have people that I can talk to anytime I need them. I was dating this guy for a little while but I am no longer with him and I know it is better for me because I knew he and I would never work. That is about all right now.

Finally Going Home

After 5 months of being in Rock Springs and not seeing my family for 5 months I am going home tomorrow. I can't wait to see them again and too visit that little boy that has joined my family and see my sister-in-law. I know that I will be one of the happiest people in the world and I can't wait to go and just sit at home and visit with my family and see everything that is going on with them.

I put the Pro in Procrastination

I have such a problem with getting my work done. I don't know why work takes me so long I think it is because unless I have time in class I never see a need to do it. I just wish that I had something or someone sitting at my side telling me and reminding me to get it done mayeb then I would get stuff done but I am on my own so I need to do it for myself.

Think About Your Attitude! Not Someone Else's!

I am so tired of everyone getting upset at each other. Take credit for you own mistakes and stop blaming everyone else.
I may sounds like I am complaining but my point is eveyone should just cool down we only have 2 more weeks until school is over and we should really start trying to get along. I really wish that things could be different but the problem is no one wants to change how they are and until the day that they do change they are going to get on each others nerves. I just wish that every on was nice enough to just take a minute and think how you might have caused a problem or maybe hurt someone that day nad maybe then you might be able to change your attitude and help someone else have a better day.
How about we make this a challenge and see how many people see a difference in their attitude or someone elses. It just might make a change in your life.

Best and Worst

I am so excited because I get to meet my nephew tomorrow. So that is my best. The worst is that I have been crying all day and I can't seem to figure out why but other than that it has been and great day and I get to have an Inseption party tonight. I am just can't wait until I get to meet that little guy and hold him for a few hours and love on him all day long.

My Choice

I have made a great choice for me and my future. I am taking a year off of school and doing nothing but working and making money so I can go back the year after. I have had people tell me I shouldn't do it but the problem is they don't understand my reasons for doing it they just think that I am completely quitting without even planning on coming back. I can't wait until next year whenI am going to be at home with my family every day. So you know what let me make my choice and deal with the conciquences.

Festival of Colors

This weekend was so much fun. I went to the Hare Krishna temple in Spanish Fork Utah to the Fesitval of colors. My group of friends and I had so much fun and we are all planning on going again next year. For those of you that don't know what it is I will explain. It is a party where you throw bright colored chalk at each other and get all colorful. I would sugest this to anyone thinking about going to go. It was so much fun and most people would love it. But just a warning the color doesn't come out to easliy but it is all worth the trip.

What I Know

There is the saying that everyday you learn something new. Well here is something I know for a fact. I love that I can learn something new everyday. I know that there are time that life feels so repetive that nothing feels new but then you have that day that sticks out from all the rest and they are the best thing that can ever happen in a week of your life. The new thing that I have learned today is that no matter what happens if you love someone they will always be there for you no matter what happens to you or them and what happens to your friendship.

Life keeps moving

Last night while talking to one of my firends I realized that I have problems trusting men. Back when I was younger i was alwaysa being used and so I never knew what it was like to trust a man with my whole heart. I know that is the biggest thing that I am going to have to work on if I want to move on in life. I know that if I don't I am not going to be happy. I just hope that I can find the one guy that can change all of this for me later in life.

A New Addition

Last night my brother and sister-in-law had a new member come and join their family. Jaydain Cole Phillips was born on March second at 7:18 p.m. and he weighed 6 pounds and 6 ounces. My nephew is such a welcome addition to our amazing family and I cannot wait until the day that I am going to be able to meet him. So Jaydain Cole be prepared to join one of the craziest families ever. We all love you tons already. Love Your Auntie Becca.

Can't wait for Christmas

I love this time of year and there is always so much going on. I am so happy that my whole family will be together and that I will have my brother at home from Denver. Maybe I will be sick of him a few days after he comes home I know that I will be happy for a few days. Every time I see my brother Eric I don't realize how much I miss him till he is gone and its the same with all of my brothers I can't wait for them to leave when they are gone I always miss them. I can't wait till they leave but either way I love them. Yeah I said it I love my bothers.

Latest life updates

So many things have changed one is that one of my best friends has moved out of town now he is moving back and I still dont know if I want to see him yet. If I do see I dont know if I am going to yell at him or just be happy he is back. Also my brother David has left for culnary school and came back for Thanksgiving but he would not cook for us and show off those amazing new cooking skills he learned. Tomorrow my dad and too of my younger borthers are going to get him for Christmas. The other younger brother of mine had a major surgery on his throght and he had to have 50% of the back of his tounge and his soft palet removed and the toncels on the back of his tounge where removed and they had swelled up to the size of lemons. That is all that is new in my life.

Getting Better

Well after the last time I wrote a blog many things have happened my friend's brother's funeral happened and I went to that and it was really good I got to see his cousin and she is one of my best friends and then there is the fact that she is pregnant and it was good to see her and she is having a boy and I am so happy for her and I always feel like the one that is good but I know I'm not.

R.I.P. Rich

Yesterday one of my friend's brother committed suicide his own life and then I still had to come to school because my mom said we need to live the same even though she was there for it the whole time but I still came and I still fell so bad about it. The worst part is that many people think that they knew what was going on and then they talk to the people that really knew and say all of what they think and we find out that they are all hearing the rumors and they are no where near the truth. When I went and talked to someone about it with one of my friends I heard all of the rumors and had to deal with them then and didn't know what to say. Then there are all the people that say that they knew him and they feel bad but don't really care. Why is it that some of the people you have known for years are always the ones that you wish you got to say goodbye to one last time and never get to and you feel as if they do something wrong that it is all your fault.