Can't wait for Christmas

I love this time of year and there is always so much going on. I am so happy that my whole family will be together and that I will have my brother at home from Denver. Maybe I will be sick of him a few days after he comes home I know that I will be happy for a few days. Every time I see my brother Eric I don't realize how much I miss him till he is gone and its the same with all of my brothers I can't wait for them to leave when they are gone I always miss them. I can't wait till they leave but either way I love them. Yeah I said it I love my bothers.

Latest life updates

So many things have changed one is that one of my best friends has moved out of town now he is moving back and I still dont know if I want to see him yet. If I do see I dont know if I am going to yell at him or just be happy he is back. Also my brother David has left for culnary school and came back for Thanksgiving but he would not cook for us and show off those amazing new cooking skills he learned. Tomorrow my dad and too of my younger borthers are going to get him for Christmas. The other younger brother of mine had a major surgery on his throght and he had to have 50% of the back of his tounge and his soft palet removed and the toncels on the back of his tounge where removed and they had swelled up to the size of lemons. That is all that is new in my life.

Getting Better

Well after the last time I wrote a blog many things have happened my friend's brother's funeral happened and I went to that and it was really good I got to see his cousin and she is one of my best friends and then there is the fact that she is pregnant and it was good to see her and she is having a boy and I am so happy for her and I always feel like the one that is good but I know I'm not.

R.I.P. Rich

Yesterday one of my friend's brother committed suicide his own life and then I still had to come to school because my mom said we need to live the same even though she was there for it the whole time but I still came and I still fell so bad about it. The worst part is that many people think that they knew what was going on and then they talk to the people that really knew and say all of what they think and we find out that they are all hearing the rumors and they are no where near the truth. When I went and talked to someone about it with one of my friends I heard all of the rumors and had to deal with them then and didn't know what to say. Then there are all the people that say that they knew him and they feel bad but don't really care. Why is it that some of the people you have known for years are always the ones that you wish you got to say goodbye to one last time and never get to and you feel as if they do something wrong that it is all your fault.